Somebody
Before
fourth grade
Nobody
talked to me on the bus
I had
plenty of time to observe.
Eldon
was the boss down our end of town.
From
the apple trees to the field that flooded.
Up the
other end was a different story.
Peter
and his cousins held
From
that field
to the
only repair shop in town.
I
never saw any of them challenge Eldon.
My
mother said he was the politest boy in town.
Lizzie
called him gay.
When I
asked what that meant,
She
got swatted by Ma’s back scratcher.
Noisy
Rich messed with Eldon’s baby sister
Poor
slob didn’t know what hit him.
Eldon
was skinny but his fists were chain link
The bus
driver watched the whole thing
Never
said a word.
On a
dare, I crank-called Eldon’s sister
She
passed the phone to him.
“You
think you’re somebody,” Eldon said, with that accent.
After
that I never looked at either of them,
Afraid my face would give me away.
My
sister Ellen read a thousand books
before
she died.
I
often quit reading
before
the story is over.
I’m
afraid I’ll cry over some dog’s grave
Or
fall for a young woman
Who
died a hundred years ago.
She’d
say, I don’t know him,
And
yawn like Courtney used to do.
Courtney--
There’s
a name I haven’t said
in
more than 30 years.
Tall
Jon said she ignored all boys
But I
noticed one she liked,
The
boy who hardly spoke.
Ellen
called the quiet boy the math genius of the century,
Courtney
wasn’t the only one sighing over him.
I see
it was easier to read their lives.
They
were half as real as Huck Finn or
Emma
Jean Finch.
Courtney
had the lead roles on stage,
A
hundred sisters and a single brother.
She
went to London the spring of senior year
And
spoke with an accent until September.
Books
can scare me even now,
Because
of the truth in there.
Real
people don’t have that luxury.
Like a
hamburger
Or a
good kisser with no personality.
You
can feel that passion,
Decadence,
That
greasy, arousing wrongness.
But
then you'll be cold;
The
breakdown;
That
walk home;
That
pit gut;
Saying
"no more.”
One
day you find the dependable one
Maybe
not brand new,
But
the heat works.
There
are no spots where you park.
It
starts every time.
Years
of no stalling out.
You
can depend on the ride
It
doesn't give you fear of breaking down
You
forget what that was like.
More
years go by.
A
shitbox appears.
It has
that logo,
That
stripe,
20
years of coins in the tray.
You
look away,
Smile,
And
recall that kiss.
People like to hear
about death and crime.
Violence, robbery,
killers doing time.
But don’t bother them
with everyday pain,
Or hungry neighbours
caught out in the rain.
Did you hear?
Did you hear?
It's a horrible tale.
Mothers like her should
go to jail.
Did you hear?
Did you hear?
Tell me what she did!
In the oven they found
her youngest kid.
Small town families
have their horrors--
Incestuous affairs or
guns in drawers.
No one beats that sick
Louisa.
Better go back and
check the freezer.
When I turned sixteen I
finally found out,
I was the kid the tale
was about.
Maybe it's funny in
retrospect,
Still I’m filled with
shame if I reflect.
Everything happens for
a reason, I'm told.
Just think well and
you'll see it unfold.
My mother never roasted
a baby of course,
But humans are known to
do so much worse.
Did you hear?
Did you hear?
It's a horrible tale.
Mothers like her should
go to jail.
Did you hear?
Did you hear?
Tell me what she did!
In the oven they found her youngest kid.
After
church
Go
have pancakes
Take a
walk through the mall.
Ignore
all your servants.
They
nod and smile,
Or
ignore you back
Or
seethe with anger.
Over
your head,
Under
your feet,
Between
your fingers,
A team
of millions have assembled.
They
made that watch, those socks, that lampshade of faux Tiffany
Next
to the couch,
The
one you set to low
When
Fallon is on.
His
servants are many.
They
pay a guy to laugh at him.
They
film him, brush him, polish his face.
His
servants are many
And so
are yours.
I have
a suggestion
You
should learn to shoot rats
How to
skin them, cook them, eat them
All
with a pointy stick.
When
your servants finally get fed up.
You
won’t have a fork.
Edwin Staples is a returned Peace Corps Volunteer, an archivist, a librarian, and the son of two nurses. He resides in Seattle, Washington with his wife Rachel, and their cat, China.
Edwin’s "Colorado" appears in Anti-Heroin Chic in 2019, and "Civic Center" in Creativity Webzine in 2020. As a Bowdoin College student he was the editor-in-chief of The Quill magazine.
Love all the stories embedded here. Now I want one about China.
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