Holy
Days
Your
fourth anniversary
came
last week two days
after
a supposedly significant
anniversary
of my own, i.e,
three
score and ten.
By
a coincidence that many
table
tappers would call significant,
my
special day came on Good Friday
and
yours on Easter.
And
my shrink, she worried,
that
this week would be
for
me, as dismal as that first Friday
was
for Giotto’s Mary,
on
her knees, embracing
the
foot of the cross.
And,
too, she worried (Mireya, my shrink)
that
the effervescence of Easter
would
exaggerate the flatness
of
my sadness.
Some
thought it weird
when
for memory’s sake I
booked
a room in the hotel
I’d
frequented in your last weeks
so
I could be only ten minutes
from
the Home.
So,
there I was sitting on the enormous
bed
propped up by robust hotel pillows,
just
as I was when hospice called and told me
only
an hour or so to go. But this Sunday, nobody
called,
which, though no surprise,
delivered
a surprising jolt of grief.
Why
I Drink
Precisely
one cloud settles over my eyes
in
the morning and man alive!
it’s
full of thunder and it’s large
and
dark with moisture till I’ve lain
in
my rumply sheets for hours and started to sing
“Can
I get a witness?”
By
noon it begins to break up into
streaks
of cirrus see-through rags
(And
the hours are like days;
the
hours are like days
not
hours)
Around
noon I roll off my covers
and
slide barefoot onto the nubby carpet,
as
the cloud shreds into tatters
of
white and grey. That’s when I think about
doing
the dishes, but I don’t, although
thinking
about it is restful even when
the
cloud puffs up as if in disapproval.
“Man
alive!” my dad would say
when
he was alive and needed an exclamation.
He
also used to say, “Do these few dishes,”
which
is still, thirty years gone by, a family joke.
“Few”
being the punchline.
In
the early afternoon, the cloud lifts
and
the world is see-through blue,
but
as the day ebbs into evening,
it
expands once more,
fat
and dark and still.
Alec Solomita is a writer and artist working in the Boston (USA) area. His
fiction has appeared in the Southwest Review, The Mississippi Review, Southword
Journal, and Peacock, among other publications. He was shortlisted
by the Bridport Prize and Southword Journal. His poetry has appeared in Poetica,
Lothlorien Poetry Journal, Litbreak, Driftwood Press, Anti-Heroin Chic, The
Galway Review, The Lake, and elsewhere, including several anthologies. His
photographs and drawings can be found in Convivium, Fatal Flaw, Young
Ravens Review, Tell-Tale Inklings, and other publications. He took
the cover photo and designed the cover of his poetry chapbook, “Do Not Forsake
Me,” which was published in 2017. His full-length poetry book, “Hard To Be a
Hero,” was just released by Kelsay Books.
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