We’ll ignore what the former “middle classes”
(even they abandon
the term)
get into when
things get really bad;
it does its job,
excusing bloodshed.
Those literates
who are still extant
and talking
revive, in a big way,
“past lives.” An
influencer says
we do
remember them, it’s just denial,
a wilful mental
fog that blocks them out.
The good news is,
surviving readers read
more history, the
bad is that it’s all
dumbed down. An
Epstein type,
exposed and
hounded, says he was once
the “Walter” of My
Secret Life,
Messalina a
foremother; he couldn’t
help himself. Any
number of saints
withdraw from the
world. Attila
slaughters three
households, Countess Báthory
her own. Mussolini
is re-elected,
his supporters
overjoyed. Grieving, I see
that the self has
become unsupportable: lacking
a parent to
become, it so to speak
collapses upward.
Now I must post this,
I who was Hegel and Freud.
First
we give them clay.
At
first they’re almost catatonic,
then
shriek about how much money
they
could be making, crap they’re missing,
progress
towards higher levels
in
games. We don’t mind if they scream
and
curse, but make it clear there’s no
food
until they stop throwing
clay
at us or each other and
sculpt
something.
Then
wood. Woodcuts, toys, boats,
something.
This involves knives,
augers,
etc.; every hand
is
scarred. Fights put some of them
on
the floor,
seldom
severely but always messily
wounded.
They shriek for help,
overlook
the first-aid kit in
plain
sight. We watch benignly
to
see what they will do.
Before
we turn them loose on
more
socializing projects, we hold
a
meeting. Rage: “You refer to yourself
as
‘we’ but it’s only you,
isn’t
it? You’re just another boss!”
The
response, hurt: “Does a boss
care
about your development?
Observe
you so thoughtfully, so
penetratingly?
Does
a boss cry?”
“It’s
just a fucking labour camp!”
Not
so, we reply;
not till you merit one.
It’s possible that
failure ends.
But you have to
become it in time.
Too early, and youthful
hormones
sour into rage;
too late, and
heart lungs liver punish you.
Do it right and
you find yourself,
as Marx said,
proletarianized,
though without his
promised change in consciousness:
your triumph a
walk to the drugstore,
successful
eradication
of mould from a
shower curtain,
each meal, each
check you can cover.
And the world you
inherit
will be white
strips of cloud
reinforcing sturdy
grey,
like an advanced cardboard.
Too Big to Fail
Zuckerberg’s
plan, the Metaverse,
is
implemented. Sleep
remains
real, and the occasional drink
and
death, but otherwise
you
go from your mostly virtual
bed
to a luxurious, sunlit
office
where avatars meet;
then
nobly shop; avatars date …
(Debt
remains, but it and you
are
one, and effortlessly plotted.)
The
young are already here, the old
not
far behind. Unwieldy goggles yield
to
a chip, un-feared, or something in the blood ...
Day
is palatial, even
in
the better homeless tents.
My
first thought, needless to say, is how
my
work might posthumously benefit.
Poetry
remains, on some strange basis
(phantasmagoria?)
for stranger fans.
Real
nature poets are too hard
to
follow, but I, with my ruins,
crows,
presumption
of
dust and walking count as such.
You
visit my tomb and, following
tradition,
add a pebble
to
the overflowing pile upon it
(the real grave somewhat different).
Conjuration
They
wanted to befriend me, but something
conventionally
called a voice
intervened.
Minor differences,
mere
physical distance
forbade,
even emails became
too
hard to write, perhaps there would be
one
call … But while I
knew
them each had made
some
remark, and the voice told them
that
these, however offhand,
would
in my memory become them
and
part of my general theory, which I would
parse
like a Talmudist …
Perhaps
it was my voice.
Towards
the end, if the narrative has
you
cornered, and you’re sick of it but
of
course can’t discard it, try to
detach
yourself a little
from
it, admire it from a distance.
Not
like a creed but like some minor
work
or era in which you somehow
specialized;
it paid the bills.
Then
any residual guilt or resentment
becomes
a madman preaching on the steps
of
your favourite temple, the one to the Unknown God.
Drive
him off; the faceless figure
within,
to whom few sacrifice,
will
assume the features of a friend.
Frederick Pollack, Washington, DC - is the Author of two book-length narrative poems, THE ADVENTURE and HAPPINESS, both Story Line Press; the former reissued 2022 by Red Hen Press. Two collections of shorter poems, A POVERTY OF WORDS, (Prolific Press, 2015) and LANDSCAPE WITH MUTANT (Smokestack Books, UK, 2018). Pollack has appeared in Salmagundi, Poetry Salzburg Review, The Fish Anthology (Ireland), Magma (UK), Bateau, Fulcrum, Chiron Review, Chicago Quarterly Review, etc. Online, poems have appeared in Big Bridge, Hamilton Stone Review, BlazeVox, The New Hampshire Review, Mudlark, Rat’s Ass Review, Faircloth Review, Triggerfish, etc.
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