Favela
You handed me your glasses and asked
that I look inside your head.
So I did.
I peered in closely, as though reading
the small font of footnotes.
And my god, the squalor.
The topography of your thoughts
was a tent city of poverty thick as paste.
You were everywhere within, and held out
your many hands to guide me over
viscous runnels of jellied-water.
Weak planks of wood held our weight
as we crossed amid a scent
that flowed with the flush of an abattoir.
Your hundredfold fingers caressed my face
and reshaped it as your own.
I was bitten by the malaria of your mind,
its fever hugging me with a heat
that raw enwrapped my neck.
I collapsed onto one knee and felt the
sludge
slick about my shin. A gray vapor melted
over my eyes. I pulled your name
from the trench of my strangled throat
and flung it into the fetid air.
What? you asked, hearing my voice.
What
did you see?
I handed back your glasses. Ran my hand
through the waves of my hair.
Don’t
be foolish, I replied,
I never opened my eyes.
I opened the door.
What
a hideous first line for a poem.
“I
opened the door.”
“I
opened the door.”
How about this:
I
put my fist through the wall.
I
punched my fist straight through the wall.
And
there my hand closed on something unseen.
And
I pulled it back through the wall and flung it to the floor.
It
may have been breathing. It may have been feigning death.
It
may have been anything at all.
Whatever
it was, it was lying on the floor of my room
Like
a thought barely formed
Like
the intake of breath before a scream
This
thing I’d pulled away from where it had been
And
to show it where now it had come to lie
I
swept my hand through the air, to accentuate
The
four corners of despair, and whispered to this thing
As
if a thing that could hear: Welcome to my
world
And
said it twice more just to be clear.


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