Saturday, 19 October 2024

Nine Poems by Oonah V Joslin

 




My seventeen inch diameter dream 

 

What it was about?  

It was about seventeen inches in diameter. 

If dreams were pizzas that would be huge. 

 

But it was auditory, 

no visuals, no tastes, no smells. 

It simply stated, 'I am a seventeen inch diameter dream.' 

 

Maybe it was trying to tell me to expand  

my horizons, be more ambitious,  

engage with the world.  

 

Seventeen inches.   

What kind of measure is that 

for your dreams?

 

 

 

dreamscapes 

 

cascading  

down the mud slide through the woodland towards the lake, you say you don’t know this place. I say we’ve walked here many times. it was our haunt before the world became a long lost dream. 

 

our viewpoint is an empty space of light. we whisper. echoes eddy round the walls, up arched windows, reverberate from crystal glass. our silvery footsteps click off jade and turquoise floors.  

 

we admire the waterfalls. rapids plunging from nowhere to nowhere. excited people surf on boards, white spume flying. they must be mad, we say, to take such risks. but this, after all, is their world. 

 

seemingly solid fragments of fragility hide everywhere, ghosts in places we once knew, we are no longer in the picture. all disappears except for light and we slip out of frame, into silent thought, cascading

 

 

 

Straws in the Wind 

 

Ah, there were auguries, auspices 

there were hints, there were heralds 

and why did they take no notice; 

the young and the old? 

 

Divinations they said.  

All fled before war. 

 

There were warnings and wives tales 

prophesies and bodings 

and how could they fail 

to recognise these things? 

 

Superstitions they cried. 

All fled before pestilence. 

 

There were forecasts and foreshadowings 

there were harbingers and tokens 

inklings, intimations, 

seers and folk songs. 

 

Thus they dismissed it. 

All fled before famine. 

 

There was money, science, strategies galore, 

escape plans and dreams 

but just as before, 

they were merely wild schemes. 

 

Fighting for their final breath. 

All fled before death 

 

the white, the red, the black and the pale 

And all through history you'll find 

retold, this age old tale  

They fled before us like straws in the wind.

 

 

 

The Orangutan in the room 

 

She was clearly going to wreck the place 

swinging from lampshade to curtain rail 

a full-toothed grin on her excited face 

but when she grabbed the budgie I turned pale 

 

like a child she put it straight to her mouth 

and I rushed to get the poor bird back  

only she was no youth 

I gave her a smack 

 

she went berserk and made for the door 

into the garden  

well before 

I could close it 

 

and there she was staring down at me 

with her usual grin 

from the topmost branch of the tree 

I couldn't win! 

 

So I lay on the lawn 

where the grass grew deep 

and gave a long yawn 

and fell fast asleep 

 

I woke and felt a heavy weight 

upon me but a soft embrace 

long arms enfolding me like fate 

warm breath and familiar face 

 

and it seemed to me,  

meant to be 

I had denied the orangutan  

was part of me

  

 

 

Time Travel 

 

I wonder, watching shadows shift, 
shimmer across mirrors and walls, 
is my armchair a time machine? 
 
Nightfall crows gather in gloaming 
under the salted vault of sky; 
the stars that made my marrow. 
 
Ceiling, floor, walls disintegrate, 
peeling, wheeling away. Reeling, 
I contemplate time’s template. 
 
I hear the seugh and roar of it; 
moments passing by my ears, 
the jangle of eternity's strange music. 
 
Within this luscious wilderness 
of consciousness I wait my fate. 
On the woven tarot of cosmic cloth. 
 
I am a moth, fluttering towards 
light, laundering its reality, 
the white sheets of dawn.

  

 

 

An Ordinary Day 

 

I couldn't call the register  

they wouldn't settle down. 

Our gardener had dug a pond  

right outside our back door. 

The drizzle's turned to purple snow. 

It's killing all the ducks. 

 

I know that when I'm wide awake 

none of this will be true. 

Something about this inner life 

feels incredibly real. 

Why would it make a difference 

that I open my eyes? 

 

Sometimes I just worry that 

my mind is losing me.

 

 

 

Lesson of the Dark 

 

What is the dream that haunts the hunter, 

the dream that stalks the night? 

It’s always been here and there, 

subconsciously, even in daylight.  

It slips past your defences, under  

your radar, unknown, quiet but quite 

intractable, undetectable, a thunder 

cloud, gathering in your every thought. 

No cell, no synapse is sacred. It saunters 

through childhood memories, plunders 

love’s lost images, deep fears wrought  

from insecurities, things chewed over 

a billion times, bitter battles fought, 

faults, unresolved flaws you cover  

and it never gives up. Behold the emperor 

of dark recesses. The hideous haunter, 

the hunter in your head. Your truth. All yours. 

 

 

Munch had it right 

 

They laid Richard over a horse and 

nobody heard him scream, 

like Cook in Hawaii  

or the victims of climate change 

or aircrash passengers  

folk reduced to ash; 

all dreams turn to screams. 

The internal combustion engine became 

an external threat and nobody  

screamed enough. 

In the sixties you couldn't hear the music 

sometimes for the screams.  

The first mobile phones cried blankly  

'Has anybody seen my scream?' 

Not yet. Not without a screen! 

Complete ceasefire,  

a thing of desire  

in seventies Ulster  

and all the world over, 

anything to replace the screams. 

Munch had it right. 

Birth to death. 

Life comes a-screaming at you!

 

 

 

The Curtain Falls 

 

Is it the bird song brings the day 

or the day that brings birdsong; 

bending sound and bending light  

lifting a new horizon up upon a skein of sky?  

 

The silky assonance of morning  

milks the milky way of stars that dance  

down to soft day’s dawning 

and yawning, half asleep, we keep 

our treasured dreams dangling on lax strings, 

flaccid puppets peeping through the curtain  

of the future, all uncertain, barely glimpsed. 

 

I ask the nightingale about the dreams it weaves. 

I ask a lark about the dreams it wakes. 

Both of them say a song is just a song.

 

 

 

Paws for Thought 

 

I wish I could sleep  

as a cat sleeps 

all soft and paws 

the whole being  

an entity of pause 

I wish I could sleep  

like that – like a cat.








Oonah V Joslin is a 70 year old retired teacher and former editor at Every Day Poets and The Linnet's Wings. She was born in Ballymena N Ireland but now lives in Northumberland with her husband of 44 years, Noel. She has only published one book: Three Pounds of Cells.  

 

                              

 

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