Sunday, 5 November 2023

Six Poems by Nolo Segundo

 



                                       

The ‘When’ Poems



When Flowers Die 

                                 

When flowers die,

They die slowly—

Edge by edge

The petals curl,

Still, silently,

Without complaint.

 

Unlike us,

Cut flowers

Should be let go

Before the first

Tinge of death,

While they are

Yet radiant in

Deepest colour.

 

We, however,

Must stay alive

Long, long past

Our first bloom—

Till we have

Crinkled and

Brutishly browned

With excess time.

 

Yet we have what

Flowers have not:

Our love for them

Dies with them.

Our love for our

Beloved blooms,

More resplendent

With long years—

Lasting past the fading,

Lasting past even

death itself.… 

 

                                                                                              

When An Old Man Dreams 

 

When an old man dreams,

he never dreams his age--

for only in his dreams can

he become young again

and so he dreams freely

sailing through the world,

carelessly, wantonly even,

for he is young again and

the young fear nothing

except the immediate.

 

I dreamt last night I was

a young man and moved

through the world as

though I owned it-- I

drove my car like some

immortal fool and went

to a party where I was

the centre of my own

attention—and when I

saw a beautiful woman

with her eyes on me,

yes, only me, I went

to her and wrapped her

taut body in my arms

as we kissed a long,

long kiss, lips meshed,

and with eyes closed

we ignored the tiny

world gathered about

us as the soft pleasure

spread to our souls …

 

I can’t wait to sleep

and dream… to sleep

and dream...to sleep

and dream…. 

 

 

When Angels Come 

 

When angels come,

they are seen only

by babies and very

young children, soon

to be forgotten. And

sometimes those who

are good at heart

will encounter angels

who look so human

yet ….

 

When angels sing,

theirs choirs sing

with choirs human,

and both can be

heard in heaven

as on earth. Or

an angel’s song

may be a ballad

in an Irish pub.

 

When angels weep…

they weep far more

for our loss of joy

than sins committed,

their quiet tears for

love omitted.

 

When angels laugh,

they laugh at the king who

holds tight to his throne.

They find humorous

The rich man who owns,

and laugh the most

at the materialist

who says “Clearly,

angels cannot exist.”

 

That gets them

rolling in the

endless aisles

of Heaven.



When I Leave You 

 

When I leave you,

It won’t be out of anger,

It won’t be out of jealousy.

It won’t be for another woman,

And it won’t be for freedom.

 

When I leave you,

It won’t be with grace—

It will be hard, hard to do.

I could try to fight it—

But with what power?

Taken quick or slowly,

I’ll still be taken

Out of this world,

Out of your life.

 

Never out of your heart,

I know—I’m planted there,

A Gibraltar till time’s end.

Yet…yet

I fear for the weight,

The heaviness on you:

All the times you’ll need

A touch, or miss my breath

On the nape of your neck.

 

When the stars weep,

When songbirds die,

Then, only then

Will my love be left

By your lonely side.

 

Do I yet know how

Much I love you?

Will my soul chant

In mourning for you?

Will it long for this world

Of night and day only

Because you are still in it? 

 

 

When Death Was Free To Roam The World 

 

When Death was free to roam the world,

Unconstrained by science and medicine,

When doctors were mostly showmen,

And priests held the final word,

Then people believed in God and in

Heaven’s bliss and hell’s torments.

 

We moderns think that quaint now,

As we look back, we so much wiser,

Battling microbe killers while our

Instruments poke the universe, our

Knowledge galloping ever faster; and

Now we think death is the end, there

Will be no more, and angels are left

Only in those obsolete shelters that

House old illusions of a dead deity.

 

‘Be thee so sure?’ an ancient prophet

Might ask, for if you are wrong in

The measuring, in the weighing of

This world, then what world might

Await you when body and brain expire

And you find something still exists, an

Imperishable mind, one far beyond

Our mortal understanding clipped

By our senses and our feeble fears? 

 

 

When The Heart Breaks 

 

My hearts breaks so readily nowadays--

at hearing of the sudden death of a friend

or witnessing the slow death of another.

My heart is wrenched to see dementia

in my lovely neighbour with her lovely

English accent, and ‘Oh my dear’s,

knowing her sparkling voice might

soon be stilled as she moves slowly

and irretrievably into her childhood….

 

I want to ask God the why, the why not

of this part of the Grand Design—but

I know there will be no answer… though

perhaps I already have a part answer--

For when I was young and selfish and

perhaps even callous, my heart did not

see, my heart did not hear, my heart

knew neither longing nor joy-- it was

as though my heart were dead, unfeeling,

unresponsive...fearful, oh so fearful….

 

Now my heart lives and breathes and

feels pain and loss and joy, oh, the joy!

Is that what God wanted all along,

that I unclothe my heart and bear it

naked to the world, in hope and love?


Nolo Segundo, pen name of L.J.Carber, became a widely published poet in his mid-70's in over 140 literary journals/anthologies in America, Canada, England, Romania, Scotland, Portugal, Australia, Sweden, India and Turkey. A trade publisher has released 3 book length collections: The Enormity of Existence [2020], Of Ether and Earth [2021], and Soul Songs [2022]. These titles like much of his work reflect the awareness he's had since having an NDE when as a 24 year old agnostic-materialist, believing only matter was real and so death meant extinction, he lept into a Vermont river in an attempt to end the suffering of a major clinical depression. He learned that day the utter reality that poets, Plato, and Jesus have spoken of for millennia: that every sentient human has a consciousness that predates birth and survives death--a soul. A retired teacher [America, Japan, Taiwan, and Cambodia in the mid-70's] he's been married 43 years to a smart and beautiful Taiwanese woman.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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