What we did next
We
knew
we
shouldn’t go
up
the deserted drive
but,
farm kids,
we
didn’t pay heed to Trespass
and
it wasn’t as if that afternoon
this
was the first time,
summertimes
we’d trekked our years
farm
to farm and back
along
the Ashridge lanes
claimed
our dens —
a camp snuck in the dip in Bow Park’s
hedge
the nook in the hen-shed in West Villies
a hollow high in the haystack bales, in Frost
Close,
dark corner in Whitemoor’s linhay,
the bamboo island with ducks on the
pondinthewood.
Usually,
except Tessa
on
her milking round,
no
one else was around.
We
passed through the gap
where
the white gate between the stone pillars
once
was, down the track into the wood —
its backdrop of oaks, beech and birch
its layerings of hazel and holly
its streaking jay
its weaving rivulets
king cups and milkmaids hemming the bottom
brook,
we
passed
kingfisher’s holes in oaks
owl’s nests in mossy hollows in tree roots
robins rustling for insects in the undergrowth
woodpeckers tapping out their enigmatic code.
Speaking,
the speaking branches
casting
their nets
taking
us, taking us in we’re
one
with the wind
one
with the birds
and
scrambling creatures
the
fungi labyrinths
one
with all the ever before ever after tree-story.
When
we leave the wood the other side
and climb the last lane
round the corner to
Ashridge’s
back track,
just
before the tumble-down Great Barn,
we
are children of myth covered in sigils and leaves
gabbling
to one another in the oldest language…
No,
we knew we shouldn’t go there,
at
least not inside, through the broken window —
Do
not enter. You are Trespassing, it said.
You can guess what we did.
Farewell
They meet in the nave
the family cluster, gladly grieving,
gossiping across the aisles,
and various other of the village community
heave in through the imposing fan-tailed porch
escaping the unexpected heatwave
to respect their newly dead.
The warden offers a taper to the white candles
tokens to the old faith.
The curate leads his sheep, the twin cavaliers,
respecting their master, they’re soon asleep,
snoring at his feet.
The sibling trio stumble over their self-imposed poetic obituary.
The organ’s solemn processional,
later, the dutiful prayers
and humorous epitaph delivered by the Team Vicar.
Ripple of communal chortle.
Then the dignified bearers lift the departed towards his last resting
place
accompanied by the wreathed floral tractor.
We bend our heads.
Finally, all hell lets loose.
Combine Harvester blasts out
fanning the vaulted roof with barrelled Worsel sound.
We turn to one another
cachinnate our spirits beyond the awful sacrifice of grief.
The
idyll of the luminous dream
… the rumour of her
become
as remote as water
falling
over a distant weir,
then
wholly forgotten
nothing
left of her in anywhere —
we were
all there,
the
present
packed
with those we lost that year,
their elders,
one generation back,
the
toddling steps of the ones who’ve just arrived —
all
crying, conversing, quipping,
even
squabbling in the merry May Day air,
no
expectation of grief to come
stopping
us from lulling in our present’s peace,
none,
none of us having to wait
until
the rest
were
born
none
having to wait to lose
the
others.
I wept.
We. Were. All. There.
Note: A half-found poem (lines from first stanza adapted from Cousin Rosamund, by Rebecca West)
I came here
seeking solace
following a Prince’s death —
some of us, quiet
subjects
with our ancient
collective heart
(the age’s contagion
still beating our streets)
find grief churning
butterflies
black in the pits of
our stomachs —
but today
Dartmoor took us
into her tomb
and the weight
of them —
those unseen,
who once swathed my
life’s air
hiding here
in spring’s
undergrowth —
(crows stabbing new
grass for worms,
algae bloom on
underwater’s holy spring,
honey fungus
strangling the rooted bed of greening ash) —
has been
intolerable.
Over across the
cleave,
on Belstone’s summit
slopes
those arterial sheep
tracks
warren the leylines
of moor’s palimpsest,
looking for ways to
escape
this malevolent womb
they lift the
invisibles high
to soar again,
away in crowning sky.
Copse
No
sooner seen
than,
fly-by-nights,
the
exotic mayflies
drift
on into the depths of Devon hinter-space.
Here,
pied flycatchers
dart
overhead
between
hazel and birch
and
in the damp shade remnants
of
the oldest copse and coverts
where
ferns and lichens drape
over
moss-covered trees -
these
gnarled oaks and hazels,
the
Old Folk of Devon,
leaning
on the steadying rocks
standing
their ground
converse
cheerily amongst themselves —
We
be weel Bless Ee
but
in the hinterlands,
the
undergrowth underpinnings of laurel,
rhododendron,
new
species
blowsy
vivacious
proliferate.
Once
sprightly, the natives,
Oldies, are losing their
grip
while
the travelling deer
nibble
the loosening roots at their feet.
In
the glade of summer heat
oaks
watch warblers and flycatchers flit
from
tree to tree,
exquisite,
visitants,
they
will take their fill
then
lift again to far off lands,
other
attracting climes.
Blooming
their glossy greens, their gutsy reds,
the
laurels and rhodos
run
beneath the wooded floor
shoot
out along its liminal edge
then
suss out the deepest crevice
beneath
the ancient church,
intertwining
anchoring laterals
across
the faded epitaphs.
Soon
they will shuffle the oaks
to copse’s outer extremities —
Who
will hear their plaintive call
quiverings
in
the leaf-blowing winds?
But
look – have faith in undercurrents,
the
wise inter-crossings of this woodland web —
flinging
arms around their rickety backs
younglings
grasp their elder’s trembling limbs —
their
leaf hairs
flecked
with the frost
of
foliose and crustose lichen,
their
stipules camouflaged
with
fringes of moss
with
spangles of star-headed liverwort,
spores of lady fern.
Julie Sampson - A widely published poet, Julie Sampson’s poems appear in a wide variety of magazines including, recently, Molly Bloom; Bindweed; Coven Poetry; LitWorld2; Amethyst Review and Projectionist's Playground. Sampson edited Mary Lady Chudleigh; Selected Poems, 2009 (Shearsman Books) and a poetry collection, Tessitura, was published by Shearsman, in 2014. Her pamphlet/chapbook It Was When It Was When It Was was published by Dempsey & Windle, in 2018. Her most recent collection is Fivestones (Lapwing, 2022). Sampson's work has been placed or listed in poetry competitions, including a ‘highly commended’ in the Geoff Stevens Memorial Poetry Prize, in 2019 and an 'honourable mention' in the Survision James Tate Memorial Prize, in 2021. Sampson has a PhD from the University of Exeter, on the writer H.D. Her author website is Julie Sampson; Twitter is @julieEsampson and Instagram julieesampson/writtenindevon.
Beautiful poems. I've tried to order a copy of Fivestones, but sadly, I couldn't change the country from UK to Canada so didn't complete the sale. Perhaps you could send a private message?
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