A Matter of Faith
I remember his black robe,
the spittle glistening in
the light
cutting through the stained
glass
to the pulpit and the blond
hairs on
his fat, white, soft hands.
His voice thundered in the
vaulted
church, bouncing back from
years of fear
embedded in the stone and
plaster.
Not Catholic, but therefore
even less forgiving.
The butcher’s wife, a pillar
of our small
community, wears a new hat
with the pride
that cometh before the fall.
One can hope.
Little Linda is wearing a
new coat.
My old one is not only worn,
but getting far too small,
and so are my shoes.
Altogether, rise: “…and lead
us not into temptation,
but deliver us from evil.”
No way.
Jesus, you do what you do,
I’ll do what
I am going to do. I can’t
wait to be led into temptation
and don’t think the sinning
I have in mind
can be that evil—once I have
new clothes.
Curses
I sure did wish evil on my math teacher
who singled me out. I admit that algebra
wasn’t my strong point, but I never threw
the water-filled rubber. That was Manfred.
She made me believe I was stupid, almost
forced me into repeating a year.
For a long time I believed she ended up
in a psychiatric ward because of my curses.
There was this kid in school who called me
a filthy refugee. I was as German as he was,
but we’d escaped a war that wasn’t ours—
or so we’d thought. I did throw a stone
and (even though my aim had always been off)
this one drew blood. My teacher showed
everyone that I didn’t belong:
she had me standing in front of the class
for a whole lesson, a paper hanging from my neck
on a string: ‘IN OUR VILLAGE WE BEHAVE
IN A CIVILISED MANNER!’ I wished
for a giant fist to strike her down.
Does the director of my son’s first school
count? When he cried in the arms of his
new teacher the woman told him to man up.
He was three and a bit.
I remember hoping out loud that she’d get
toad warts on her tongue. We got expelled
immediately and marched out hand-in-hand,
my son looking up at me, his face tear-stained,
his smile making me wish I’d cursed her harder.
When my Greek made our twosome
a crowd, I finally removed myself.
On the plane I muttered:
‘May a black cat run across you when you duck
under a ladder and may your penis hurt
when you make love.’
Louise
married at 17, and died in 1810, age 34. Her legacy became
cemented after her extraordinary 1807 meeting with French Emperor
Napoleon at Tilsit— she met with the emperor to plead
(unsuccessfully) for favourable terms after Prussia's disastrous losses
in the Napoleonic Wars.
They married me off at 17.
Seventeen!
I was quite lucky. Father chose well for me.
The perfect dutiful wife.
Queen of Prussia. It could have been worse.
Nine children, and I loved every single one.
Ten, if you count my little ghost girl.
Then the little Corsican conquered half of Europe.
Bonaparte, mon Dieu, I loathed him.
He called me his beautiful enemy
and, still, I was flattered.
Our meeting in Tilsit was not quite what it seemed.
I demeaned myself at his feet.
He laughed, preferred half my country to me.
But I could tell he was tempted.
I pretended it was for Prussia
but, feeling his power, I would have been his whore.
Music under cover of night
--a pantoum
The fiddler in blue
gave the slip to
a frog of talent and
discernment.
Frog wanted the fiddle,
but not change the tune.
A frog of talent and
discernment,
the silver whale and the
octopus sang
but did not change the tune.
An angel folded his heavy
wings.
The silver whale and the
octopus—
now there was a rare
friendship.
An angel folded his heavy wings
in the soft light of loving
consequences.
Now there was a rare
friendship.
The manta ray flew silently
overhead.
In the soft light of loving
consequences
the dragonfly shimmered and
sparkled.
The manta ray flew silently
overhead,
marigold floated on
blackbird’s melody,
the dragonfly shimmered and
sparkled
holding on to spiderwebs
during the intervals.
Marigold floated on
blackbird’s melody.
All notes burst with an
audible sigh
holding on to spiderwebs
during the intervals.
Brook burbled. Took over the
bandstand.
Prayer
I wish I could just wish.
I wish I remembered how it was
when I was small. Things were easy
then. Make me good. How much better
could I possibly be? But I did hide
Mum’s best shoes behind the chicken hutch.
Oh God, forgive me my trespasses.
My what? And I did want white
knee socks instead of our daily bread.
Or peace, or things like that.
And now? I’ve learned the difference
between white knee socks
and the Holy Grail.
You listening?
I am asking nicely.
Rose Mary Boehm is a German-born British national living and writing in Lima, Peru, and author of two novels as well as six poetry collections. Her poetry has been published widely in mostly US poetry reviews (online and print). She was twice nominated for a Pushcart. DO OCEANS HAVE UNDERWATER BORDERS? (Kelsay Books July 2022) and WHISTLING IN THE DARK (Taj Mahal Publishing House July 2022), are both available on Amazon.
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These are delicious...I lobe that rebellious child and her curses on those so deserving bullies!!
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