A CHILD’S
CHRISTMAS CAROL
Then… it was a time of true magic,
When the world
was small and soft.
It had to be
magic, my mind of five
Told me: how
else could my brothers
And I go to
sleep on an ordinary,
Dull and quiet
night, to awaken in
Sheer joy the
next morn as though
We had been
zapped by a warm
Bolt of
harmless lightning, setting
Our now
restless bodies tingling….
Like racehorses
at the gate of magic,
We stood at the
top of the stairs,
Pulling at
whatever patience we
Could muster
under the admonitions
Of Mom and Dad
to wait! wait! the
Camera must be
loaded—but how
Painful to be
still when we knew
Children’s
paradise was only a
Stairway
away—and what a
Paradise we saw
unfolded in
Our now
unfamiliar living room!
The tree drew
our eyes first—
It was big and
fat, with its
Branches
sagging under all
Its myriad
ornaments: glass
Balls, plastic
candy canes,
Tinsel drooping
as though
It hung on a
weeping willow
And not a proud
Blue Spruce.
And hundreds
and millions of
Coloured lights,
some blinking,
Some staid,
made our tree
Sparkle like
the royal crown
Of a giant
king—perhaps
The King of
Toys, for they
Were seen in
abundance
Wherever we
looked: trucks
And bikes, and
bats and games.
Each brother
had his own pile
(we marvelled
how thoughtful
Santa must be)
and we knew
In each stack
there were boxes
Beautifully
wrapped but sans
Treasure, alas,
hiding only socks
Or shirts,
perhaps a sweater.
Well, even the
jolly fat man
Could not be
perfect—still,
He would bring
magic to our
Home every
year, overnight
Transforming
our prosaic lives
By wonder, by
magic, by love.
And after he
went away,
When I was an
ancient six,
The world grew much
bigger
But colder,
dull and empty
Of that special
joy that
Can only come
to those
Children who believe….
AFTER COSTCO, BEFORE UKRAINE
You saw the lines weren’t too long
so you went for the gas first---
spend a little time, save a lot of
money you thought. But it took
longer than you expected [too
many ‘tanks’ as you call SUVs
filling up their 50 gallon tanks]
so by the time you went into the
giant store, you were feeling like
a crab trapped in a net as you
wrestled through the weekend
horde of bargain hunters….
Finally at home, you plopped
down in the comfy chair as
the nightly news came on and
sipped the fresh brewed French
roast and ate a piece of rich
chocolate cake you bought at
Costco and felt a bit sad for
those poor people in Ukraine
as you watched war in hi-def.
Still, the thought uppermost in
your mind, as your eyes scanned
so many dead bodies lying quiet
in the streets like stones thrown
randomly, was just how damn
good the coffee was and how
much you had saved going to
the big box store….
LOVE IS NOT KNOWN
Love is not
known, and
can never be
known.
Love cannot be
weighed
Like bullion or
flour.
Love cannot be
roped—
A wild mustang
running
Free, never
tethered,
Never
corralled—freer
Than the North
winds.
Love has its
own mind:
It comes when
it comes,
Will not hear
entreaties,
Will not beg
its bread,
For love rules
all worlds
And love soaks
all life.
Love is a gangster,
Obeying no
laws,
Taking what it
wants.
And love is a
priest,
Making holy
life’s dirt,
Redeeming then
the
Wreckage of
hope by
Pouring its
holy water,
Quenching all
longing
Love is a
magician,
Appearing in
two
Hearts at once,
Transforming
the
Beast into a
man,
Girl into
woman--
An alchemist
Changing lead
Into pure
gold….
And love can
never die.
When the heart
it holds
Beats its last
beat, then
Love will soar
with soul
To the next
world, for
Love is the
only key
That can pry
open
Heaven’s heavy
door.
OCEAN CITY
I saw it then as my own little Shangri-La,
for I was very
small and knew nothing
of the big world,
the grown-ups’ world.
And for the
child-me it was nirvana,
that little town
on a barrier island
between the grey,
cold, untamed and
endless Atlantic
Ocean and the quiet,
near somnolent bay
where the boats
of the less brave
could sail safely….
I could ride my
bike from Nana and
Pop-pop’s little
house on that bay,
feeling as free as
the myriad seagulls
swirling forever
above my head--
I ‘d ride ‘cross
town to the boardwalk
and if I had a
dollar, see a movie by
myself, feeling
like a proud little lord--
I remember as
though yesterday, and
not 60 some years,
my favourite theatre,
with its long
darkish hall that looked
like the entrance
to a pirate’s den,
lined with
displays of model sailing
ships, mostly
men-o-war chasing, yes,
pirates, but never
catching them….
But most
afternoons I was happy to
just sit quietly
on the porch of my
grandparents’
house, smelling the
dinner Nana was
making while I
read of countless
dreams in books,
books that
captured like a pirate
his prey, and took
me round the
world in the
finest and fastest
sailing ship of
all—imagination!
Tasting Eternity
My old friend and I went to a restaurant for lunch,
a ramshackle little place, but my friend
told me
the food was great—and it was! Three
different
chicken curries, a lovely lamb curry, and a
half-
dozen veggies, and mango drinks to wash it
down.
I suppose we visited the buffet more times
than we
should have but we were talking philosophy
as we
always did when we got together and
speaking of
God and the soul and the meaning of life
really
can make you hungry--then my friend said he
believed in God but had trouble with
Eternity--
it seemed scary, terrifying even to think
of time
going on forever, endlessly, a road never
ending.
I laughed a little, then smiled at my old
friend--
‘THIS is eternity! ‘ I told him, ‘Right
now, this
moment as we eat this delicious curry and
try
to figure out the meaning of our
existence’.
I swallowed a mouthful of lamb korma and
laughed again-- ‘wherever we exist is
eternity,
and we always exist somewhere, and time is
an illusion, time does not exist, except as
a
moment’-- And the next moment, I asked him
if he had room for the rice pudding….
Lovely poems, and a good read. I enjoyed them, thank you!
ReplyDeleteI know I am a little late but thanks, Ursula…
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