Yazidi - Not a war, but a genocide
As
I stared into the distant mirage, the harsh desert winds drove in sharp fierce
waves, penetrating my clothes, eyes, and ears, the razor edge sand particles
sought anything soft and pliable that they could cut.
My
name is Shiva. I am a doctor from Dharwad, India, and I work for the
humanitarian organization Doctors without Borders. It was a hot, fiery August
something 2014 and I was posted at this UN outpost, bordering Iraq, Syria and
other outlands.
The first few days were quiet, just a few soldiers suffering from heat stroke.
Then a horde of people started trickling in, shredded by the desert, fleeing
the harsh mountains, and the rapacious Taliban who were hunting them.
They
were the Yazidi survivors. At that point, the world had no idea of these people
or their ordeal.
Their
eyes were blank, dead, and it was not from the desert heat. The eyes were of
people who had endured unknown horrors. Most of them were women, girls, and
children, gasping as they came across the security perimeter, staggering with
fumes of a desperate spirit. Then they flopped down, pitiful whimpers seeped
out of their parched throats.
We quickly gave them water, dates, bowls of soup, and they nibbled at the food.
A few could not move, and they lay lifeless. An orderly brought one of them
into a tent. She was almost gone, eyes fluttering and body palpating.
I reached out and she jerked awake, her parched throat crying out a warning, eyes
and teeth bared to bite, nails clenched to gouge, the only weapons left. As I
held her arm, she fluttered like a butterfly caught by a wing.
An
interpreter shouted that I was a doctor, and she became quiet. It was like
treating a wary and injured deer that does not know whom to trust.
The feet were a blistered mass of flesh, embedded with sand and blood. I
swabbed, poked with forceps, and she stoically bore the intense pain, not
uttering a whimper, as she stared, starting to trust me.
She
whispered “thank you doctor.”
“You
speak English?”
“Yes
doctor.”
“Good,
what is your name dear?”
“Sanaz”
She was scratching her neck, and I could see spots of blood as it seeped
through the dirty dress. I coaxed her to sit still and slowly unpeeled the top
partly to the top shoulders.
Her neck was a mass of bruises, small puckered holes, slowly turning into pus.
“How did you get
these wounds?”
“From
feeding my baby brother.”
“What?
What do you mean?”
She
broke down then, her thin body wracked by cries of past memories. I cleaned the
wounds, sewing and dressing them, injected her, and soon we were done.
She sat still looking at me with those liquid black eyes, then burst out
crying.
“All of them are dead,
killed, even my brother.”
“Okay
Sanaz. I understand. Why don’t you wait outside? I have to treat some more
patients.”
After I finished with the other patients, my boss Col. Dr. Sara called me over.
“Shiva,
that patient Sanaz. I did a full check-up. I was shocked by what I saw.”
“Eh?”
“She
has deep welts and scars on her back and thighs from repeated lashings and branding,
she was repeatedly raped and abused. Her vagina and anus are torn, the same
with other women. They are not fleeing a war, but genocide.”
“What!”
“Yes.
She is the only one who speaks English. Can you get her to talk? I will come
with you.”
We
went over to her tent, where she lay coiled, her knees drawn in to her stomach,
in a protective foetal position.
“Sanaz,
how are you feeling?”
She
slowly uncoiled and sat up, briefly looking around with a hunted look.
“Please
tell us about your brother? How did you get those injuries on the neck, and on
your back?”
Her
grief broke out, like a breached dam, and she muttered out her ghastly tale.
The answers came out in a staccato, broken, often incomprehensible.
“Doctor
-- my brother -- fed from me -- drinks my blood to live.”
She
continued now coherently, “The journey across the desert and mountains was
endless. It was always one hill after another, one sun after another. We ate
what we could, my brother could not. I forced him to bite into my neck and
drink my blood.”
“From
whom were you running?”
“From
the Taliban slave traders and militants who raided our village. They forced all
girls and women into sabaya, sex slaves. My father and brothers were shot in
front of us. I ran away into the mountains with my brother, but a Taliban
caught us. He raped me, and then I was passed on to others.”
She
started sobbing and gasping and we let her quiet down.
“I
was beaten, burnt and chained to a tree. Everyone raped me. Sometimes it was
10, often it was 20. I escaped one night with my brother and joined this
group.”
She
trembled and gasped, drawing her breaths in pants, then continued.
“My
brother died on the journey”, she sobbed.
She
looked at us, like a trustful lamb, the eyes black and liquid.
“You
will not sell me or send me back?”
“Now
do not worry Sanaz, this is a UN camp, we have armed soldiers here to protect
you. You are safe.”
As
the days passed, more victims came to us, narrating the horrors of war, and our
camp grew.
I
was very busy and saw her now and then. She was hardy, and would recover from
her physical wounds. About the wounds on the psyche, yes, she would overcome
them eventually.
I
had begun to feel for her. The Yazdis are a race of beautiful, courageous, and
noble people, with an indomitable spirit. It seemed that the torture had only
made their will to live and fight much stronger.
I pray to god that this nightmare ends.
Based
in Pune, India, Shashi Kadapa is the managing editor of ActiveMuse, a journal
of literature. He is the 2021 International Fellow of the International Human
Rights Foundation, NY. Thrice nominated for Pushcart Prize, he is a two-time
award winner of the IHRAF, NY short story competition. Writing across various
genres, his works have appeared or forthcoming in anthologies of Casagrande
Press, Anthroposphere (Oxford Climate Review), Alien Dimensions #11, Agorist
Writers, Escaped Ink, War Monkey, Carpathia Publishing, Sirens Call
Publications, Samie Sands, Mitzi Szerto, and others. Please follow these links
to review his works: http://www.activemuse.org/Shashi/Shashi_Pubs.html
Really it's emotional and scary to know the life story of a woma woman. Let it remain a story nevertheless a reality. God save them and save the world by bringing up poor people in your safe hands.
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