It’s a back alley promise,
but then aren’t they all?
She stumbles the littered street,
least of which is this life,
these chances that didn’t
cigarette little more than a stub
threatening to char her lips,
and she wonders what it would take,
what would happen if she were to
chuck it at the nearest window,
and listen to the glass rain down,
thousands of deadly shards of rainbows.
She keeps walking down that alley,
She sees a shadow of something
a blinking flash of recognition,
swing, all her muscles tensed in action,
and enter, everything giving way
When she sees the spiderwebbed glass
she wants that control more than anything.
But the cars pass down the
street peppered with sparse houses,
and she feels the eyes of the world
anticipating her next movement,
and that’s far too much pressure
for the little she has left within.
the clouds offer only cloying comfort,
and no possible action makes sense.
So she balls herself up into herself,
a flexing, tense amalgamation
of all that she has accumulated,
and she puts a boot through the glass,
unconsciously screaming all the while.
The shattering sings along with her,
the inside of everywhere,
constant repetition of things
but never wanted in her head.
they permeate everything,
leaving her so full of holes,
it’s no wonder she’s light enough
to float to the ceiling of her mind
anything more substantial
she carries in her threadbare pocket.
Sometimes outside of herself
and that almost feels like a sign
that things could keep rolling
and there she’ll finder herself,
But those things never happen,
So she hangs herself from
the inside of everywhere,
gently, loosely swaying in
When there’s nothing left
No need for bags or wishes,
only what can fit into a pocket,
doesn’t physically weigh.
everything is left to chance,
and all the things undone
are to forever remain that way.
a peephole of determination,
a tunnel vision of depressing hope,
the ether cries its demands,
and the walker determines
what is to be left unanswered.
Maybe the roof wouldn’t cave,
either way, no one will be there
she forcibly sees things in clouds
illustrations of the kama sutra
she forcibly sees things in clouds
because there’s no magic to be found
James Benger is the author of several books of poetry and prose. He is on the Board of Directors of The Writers Place and the Riverfront Readings Committee and is the founder of the 365 Poems In 365 Days online workshop, and is Editor in Chief of the anthology series. He lives in Kansas City with his wife and children.