Wednesday, 18 October 2023

Four Poems by Hedy Habra

 




Or What Else Could We Do But Raise Our Hands?

                        After Arabesque Mortem by Reem Bassous

 

What of the feeling of sinking

                                    whether in water or quicksand

                        when tall waves or sand storms

engulf streets, when silt, dust,

                                    shards, erase boundaries, words

                        break down, and scattered letters

run wild in search of meaning

 

                        we raise our hands

 

                                                when the earth shakes, when

                                    institutions falter, whether it is

                        a fault line, an explosion,

or an unforgivable negligence,

                                    when heirlooms and artworks bleed

                        to death, their remains floating,

                                                when we need to start from scratch,

 

                        we raise our hands

 

when pine needles whisper

                                    hopelessly trying to reach

                        an empathetic ear or heart

when their underground veins

                                    shiver in inaudible speech,

                        when fragmented words rant,

stop conveying meaning

 

                        we raise our hands

 

                                                when rivers and waterfalls

                                    darken, suffused with harmful

                        dejections, debris and waste,

when tired fish no longer procreate,

                                    when trees yearn for their

                        birthright, remembering their

                                                original sap, and fruits wither

 

                        we raise our hands

 

when a knotted hand shivers

                                    for lack of care and medicine

                        when trust is buried under deceit

when windows shatter and buildings

                                    stand naked, when firemen are thrown

                        into an unfathomable abyss

 

                        we raise our hands in prayer

                                    we raise our hands in anger

                                                we raise our hands,

                                                            we raise our

                                                                        we raise

                                                                                    we

 

First published by On the Seawall

Collected in Did You Ever See The Other Side? (Press 53 2023)


 

Hall of Mirrors

 

First, there’s the mirror of memory: you only need

to refuel it with lies and illusions, project it onto a

screen, winding up sequences of animated scenes at will.

 

In the dormant well of memory

            you seek yourself and lose yourself,

 

sit for hours on the polished lip of the well as you

meditate over your lengthening shadow, perform a

makeover of your mind to erase the ravages of time: 

 

a touch of blush over cheekbones blurs gravity lines,

tilts features upwards, and if this fails, a few hours

of sleep should put a glimmer in the eyes, redress

 

drooping eyelids, avoid the unsightly X-rays of your mortality.

 

 

Then comes the mirror of forgetfulness: swallowing bit

by bit your selective memory, stretching time and space,

a fluid mirror clouded with ripples, rippling memories

 

the elusive mirror in which

             you drown night after night

 

searching for answers to the same questions. You

wish to turn nightmares into paradise: sleep paralysis

overcomes you as past and future merge on their own

 

terms, choose their own colours, glide in swift motion,

deafening rhythmic steps resound in premonition,

emerge erratically from the recesses of your mind,

 

inaudible tunes fall, scatter like the last leaves of autumn.

 

First published by Ghost Town

From The Taste of the Earth (Press 53 2019)



I Always Knew I Was a Sibyl at Heart

 

I have paid my dues and fought mood swings

before entering that stage of well-earned wisdom

preventing me from climbing over walls in midday,

pacing interminable labyrinthine pathways or drowning

in the deep wells of insomnia.

 

I’ve collected enough books to keep me company

till the day I die, stacked in double and triple rows,  

in an arbitrary order they refute in unison. Each

volume stares at me with eyes shut, scrutinizes

my movements, tries to lure me into caressing

its spine, opening it like an I Ching.

 

Shouldn’t I, on account of my years, be granted

the Sight, recognize the rhythm of unspoken speech

in the folds of each palm, read the veins of each leaf

blown by the wind? I could be scrying in the moonlight,

eyes wide-open like a wise owl sensing the slightest

reflection on still water. 

 

First published by Nazim Hikmet Fourth Annual International Poetry Festival Awards Winners: A Chapbook of Talks and Poetry



Vanishing Point

            After Juanita Guccione’s Surreal Board Games

 

Under a dark moon that has decided to keep silent, I wander along the street of chance, staring at the vanishing point, uncertain of the odds of being, but with the certainty that it leads to the sea. I walk like an automaton among passers-by, gliding as faceless pawns. A couple of black horses pound the pavement, wavering between going forward or backward.

 

I wonder what lies for me at the end of this road lined with lamplights and palm trees. Fan-leaved branches stretch, unfolding an animated deck of cards turning into murals that grow in size. Shuffled and reshuffled at each step, some cards flip into a hall of mirrors in which I lose myself in my own reflections, as though in an old photo album where the faces of those now buried are fading. 

 

                        we’re crossing the bridge of death  to leave behind

             the madness of the civil war... black sacks stained

                                    with blood... stillness... snipers...

            a heart skips a beat.

 

I walk faster, look sideways: some things are best forgotten. Let’s fold the night into light. I pass a couple of young men who seem to get closer to me, then recede and peel off the murals, disintegrate like antique parchments at the sight of an imposing woman in Tyrian purple, a younger version of my mother who takes me by the hand and whispers in my ear:

“There isn’t a minute to lose.”

 

First published by Gargoyle

From The Taste of the Earth (Press 53 2019)






Hedy Habra is a poet, artist and essayist. She has authored four poetry collections, most recently, Or Did You Ever See The Other Side? (Press 53 2023). The Taste of the Earth, winner of the Silver Nautilus Book Award and honourable Mention for the Eric Hoffer Book Award. Tea in Heliopolis won the Best Book Award and Under Brushstrokes was finalist for the International Book Award. Her story collection, Flying Carpets, won the Arab American Book Award’s Honourable Mention and was finalist for the Eric Hoffer Award. Her book of criticism is Mundos alternos y artísticos en Vargas Llosa. A twenty one-time-nominee for the Pushcart Prize and Best of the net, and recipient of the Nazim Hikmet Award, her multilingual work appears in numerous journals and anthologies. https://www.hedyhabra.com/




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