Reading Neruda on War While
Waiting in the Doctor’s Office
Probability of my leaving the office
covered in blood is nil—
well, never really nil in the world today
with
assault rifles poking around every corner
waiting
to turn everyday errands into bloodbaths
of revenge
or just pure evil.
Again last night bombs shattered
sleep for
an apartment full of Ukrainians, leaving
children with dreams
of rifles and bombs as when Neruda wrote
of Civil War in Spain.
Does it matter who we or those children
shelter from?
While I wait for surgery to be scheduled
wait with a congenital condition that like
magic
transforms a mundane procedure.
into a high-risk adventure, time to fret
and trust,
I am thankful that I have a competent
surgeon.
who understands, is confident he can
successfully
help me to see more clearly.
As I note potential dates for the scalpel
to scrape my eye
I see all too clearly the possibilities,
but know
if there is a horrible accident, it will
be only a horrible accident that
no one wanted to harm me.
I will still have my inner vision intact,
no matter what the surgeon’s skill.
If the worst happens I will be
spared parades of dead children
across pages, across tv screens.
Yes, the probability of exiting her or
there covered in blood is almost nil.
My process will likely be peaceful if
nothing else.
I wish peace, even the peace of suffering
everyday
ills and cures for all the children of the
world, for all the people.
As I wait with my still-seeing eyes, I
look
first upward, to the office television,
then downward
to my Neruda, and at last, inward to the
sight that
cannot be taken, and I ask blessings on
all touched by sorrow, by danger, by war,
by unknown outcomes.
I wish hope and love and peace for all of
us.
Joan Leotta plays
with words on page and stage. She performs tales of food, family, strong women.
Internationally published as an essayist, poet, short story writer, and
novelist, she’s a 2021 and 2022 Pushcart nominee, Best of
the Net 2022 nominee, and 2022 runner-up in Robert Frost Competition. Her
essays, poems, and fiction appear in Ekphrastic Review, Verse Visual,
Verse Virtual, anti-heroin chic, Gargoyle, Active Muse, Silver Birch, Yellow
Mama, Mystery Tribune, Ovunquesiamo, MacQueen’s Quinterly and others. Her
chapbooks are Languid Lusciousness with Lemon and Feathers
on Stone.
Joan Leotta
Author, Story Performer
“Encouraging words through Pen and Performance”
Nominated for Pushcart and Best of Net in 2022
"Feathers on Stone" poetry
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Other Joan Leotta Books
Languid Lusciousness with Lemon,
Finishing Line Press (Amazon)
Morning by Morning and Dancing Under the Moon,
two free mini-chapbooks are at https://www.origamipoems.com/poets/257-joan-leotta
For information on my four out of print novels, collection of short stories and four children's picture books, contact me at this email
Hope for a successful surgery for you... and peace and sweet dreams for children everywhere. Beautiful poem.
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