All That Is Offered, I Embrace
When the man from another state
emails, I’ll be
in your area soon,
have a hotel,
let’s meet up,
I answer, Sure,
sure; I will never
hear from him
again. When
the woman a few
blocks away
texts, Let’s
swap nudes, or love letters,
or philosophies
of nothing & the moon,
I agree: she will
have forgotten my name
before the message
ends. When
the grey dog
follows me home,
it is to find the
missing warmth
of a fresh lawn
before moving on.
I’m embarrassed by
the measure
of options. Why is
it all so genuine?
When, lovely as an
oil-slick portrait,
the raven I fed
buns last week
returns to bring its
quid pro quo,
it will be a
ransom note
or bottle with a
message in it:
I don’t know
where I am.
When the couple
I’ve barely met
reads one of my
books together,
each accuses the
other
of being my lover,
antagonist,
muse for a clever
turn of phrase.
Neither speaks to
me anymore.
I’m left alone
with my thoughts:
they disappoint
me, too,
tell me I’m a
loser & a god.
Street Sweeper
pulls down the cul-de-sac after a short, warm rain,
does figure-eights
at ten miles per hour,
leaving crop
circles on blacktop.
Watch the vehicle
spin like a slow-mo semi
ready to
jack-knife, except the footage won’t speed up.
This is real-time,
a happening.
I picture the
driver yucking it up,
drunk or reliving
his glory days
behind the wheel
of a Camaro,
shouting Damn,
that’s good!
as the big machine
turns & turns before
beginning the
turtle crawl back the way it came.
I almost wave
goodbye to the orange triangle
that warns of
danger if somebody gets too close
to a man engaged
in enjoyment of his work.
Sometimes I take my own advice &
open to encounters, visions,
styles of music, strangers.
Sometimes I take my own advice &
leave, my eyes halogen lamps
probing the lengthy empty highway dark.
Sometimes I take my own advice &
try to be normal, try to fit in
though I’m a cat in the rabbit warren.
Most of the time I ignore the words
I’ve given to those who’ve asked for them.
I’m foolish & reckless, spendthrift & shifty.
The best advice comes from experience,
which I need more of before the city
shuts down again, before the sun burns out.
A Good Lover Knows How to Sing
Meant to spend the day licking, sucking,
hopping around in
the clumsy dirigible
of my body, but
got distracted on the internet’s
live music
archive, a rabbit hole of concerts
by bands I had
forgotten: Def Leppard in ’87,
the year I saw them
while an awkward teen
who never kissed a
girl or guy; Nirvana
in the early 90s
before I was into grunge;
The Jayhawks last
year when doors were opening &
the Delta variant
had yet to spoil our autumn plans;
Bob Weir from the
Grateful Dead two nights ago,
still jamming
& more soulful than ever.
I lost track of
time & wild escapes I planned &
lost myself in
music, what I always do.
Its touch knows me
better than a lover’s—
soothing, it
entices, turning me on
when I turn it on,
biting my ear a little,
though at my age,
sometimes my ear
can’t get it up.
That doesn’t stop me
from trying, paying
attention to every
breath, note,
riff, & quickening beat.
Neruda for You
Nest against me, little grouse,
as if in shadows
of a hollow tree.
I’ll surround you
with lovegrass,
vines, & ivy,
hidden from a hunter’s scope.
You’ve been
through panic of the re-
awakening city,
discarded hope
by unclean
fountains &
at the bottom of marble
stairs.
Allow me to quiet
your heartbeat,
reading someone’s
love for someone else.
It will be our
love, a stolen emotion.
As I lift the
book, nestle & rest
against a groove
denting my chest
the exact shape
& size of your delicate head.
Ace Boggess is author of six books
of poetry, including Escape Envy (Brick Road Poetry Press,
2021), I Have Lost the Art of Dreaming It So, and The
Prisoners. His writing has appeared in Michigan Quarterly Review,
Notre Dame Review, Harvard Review, Mid-American Review, and other journals.
An ex-con, he lives in Charleston, West Virginia, where he writes and tries to
stay out of trouble. His seventh collection, Tell Us How to Live,
is forthcoming in 2024 from Fernwood Press.
Wonderful to read these. Thanks
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